"The worst thing in the world is to try to sleep and not to."
- F. Scott Fitzgerald
No shit, F.
Wow, did I have insomnia last night. If you've ever had it, you know it is just horrible. If you've never had it, consider yourself lucky.
You lie there, and you toss and you turn and you think the most random thoughts, and then, the worst thing, you start looking at the clock periodically, just to torture yourself. Oh, now it's 2:30 am. Oh, now it's 3:10. Oh, now it's 4:49. Jesus H. Christ on a popsicle stick.
I have no clue what caused it. I only had one cup of coffee yesterday, well before noon, so I wasn't overly caffinated. I had a couple of glasses of wine at dinner (maybe I should have had more!) But whatever it was, it was a doozy.
And of course, being a disgusting male, I considered, er, how do I say this, relieving some tension at about 4 am, if you know what I mean. But I didn't even have the energy for that. So you know I was tired.
The good news, I wasn't horrendously late this morning as I usually am. The bad news, I will probaby fall asleep at the desk in about an hour.
Anyway, now I'm on my 4th cup of coffee just to try to wake up and get some energy going. Which, of course, means tonight I will be unable to sleep again. I'm fucked.
5 comments:
Been there too! It's the worse feeling.
I hate that. I started having a lot of problems with my thyroid a little over a year ago, and even with heavy sleeping pills, I would still toss and turn. Now my thyroid issues are resolved, but my body "trained" itself to stay awake in those awful insomnia patterns. I take two sleeping pills a night and still usually only sleep about 4-5 hours. It sucks. I feel for you!
Thankfully I don't get insomnia too often, but when I do it ruins your day because you drag your ass around feeling like crap. Yuch.
hehe you're disgusting! I can just imagine what you were going to do at 4 a.m. lol
Are you still awake jbk?:)
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